Dropping My Baggage

Blood pressure meds, thyroid meds and...insulin...
I gotta change....

I need to forgive myself for my response to what happened to me. 
I was just a little girl, but I did some things I am so ashamed of I cannot speak of them or even ask forgiveness for them. I don't know why I did those things.  Perhaps I wanted someone else to feel the shame as well..  Maybe it was revenge-I still don't know.

I have to forgive myself, hope others forgive me and pray God forgives me too.

I am going to train to run (OK walk) in a 5+3 K run (OK walk) in Tampa in February.  I will keep you posted....TEE HEE!!!

I love that I am happy.  I really am.  
Now I know you are thinking,  "Really?  Then why do you hide your emotions with food?" That is for a therapist in my future to figure out, but I really wake up every morning glad to see the day and all the people in it.
And that my friend, is enough.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
I hate that I don't believe in myself enough to do something with my weight.  I hate that something catastrophic will have to happen to make me sit up and deal with this (or that my family will have to lay me down in a box and they will be left to deal with it).

I have writing about this elsewhere, but I decided I need to do it here focused just on my body issue struggles.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

I got this here   He got it here (I think)