If you diet in 2011, you'll be dieting in 2012. If you lifestyle change in 2011, you'll have a new lifestyle in 2012.
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Showing posts with label weight loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight loss. Show all posts
Sooo...I went to the Dr. 30 days ago. The change in the way I feel is AMAZING! I am truly happy again. I feel great. I have energy. I am patient and kind. I can walk up the stairs. I have not lost much weight, and I still binge like a starving man at a buffet, but my body has the sense to make me feel bad when I do. I think I might just be ready to do this thing for reals....maybe....
Most importantly...I feel again. Really feel. I feel flirty and sexual and all kinds of things I have not felt in more than 15 years. I feel like a woman and a girl and most importantly a PERSON!!!!!
Watch out ya'll...I am back!
Ok, so I have 1 year, 4 months, and 26 days or 514 days until my 50th birthday.
I want to lose 100 pounds, so that's 1 pound every 5 days, right? I think I can do that...can't I??? It seems so easy to put it that way.
Made the Appointment
Author: LibraryGirl62 / Labels: weight lossSo I made my appointment to go to the Dr. for my health care plan's required tests and crap. So I guess the line has been dawn in the sand-oh that and I hurt my elbow and the Dr.. won't give me anti-inflammatory meds because my blood pressure is so high might have a stroke...yeah....
So the other day I was just hitting "next blog" on Blogger and the first 9-yes NINE- blogs were all about running. My FB status:
So I am wasting time doing laundry and just hitting random blogs on Blogger...first 9..all RUNNING BLOGS. OK God, I hear ya, but can I WALK first please? My knees would be ever so grateful.
Really?????????
My response-with tears included for free!
Author: LibraryGirl62 / Labels: self reflection, weight lossBHJ:
I completely agree with you...but here is my take.
Addiction is addiction. And yes, mine can be tamed by less food and more exercise, it is no less the addiction than yours. Self loathing, self-destructive-ring any bells at all? I have a list of addictions in my family a mile long-the only difference, I don't like alcohol and have never wanted to smoke a crack pipe. I medicate with food-I know it and I know I should do something about it. But just like it has taken family members jail, rehab and losing everything to figure out what to do with alcohol, crack, cocaine and heroin, I am still stumbling down my road to rock bottom. Maybe it will be a heart attack, maybe being unable to climb stairs anymore, maybe a well written word on a total stranger's blog ..I am not sure. But I sure as hell ain't self-accepting my friend...any more than you are.
"If you’re overweight, and especially if you’re obese, I’ve got news for you. The wisdom of the serenity prayer in your case doesn’t point to acceptance. It screams for courage. The courage to change the things you can. If you’re a big huge fat person, looking in the mirror, struggling to inhabit a serene mind to accept yourself, you’re doing it wrong. You’re using more energy trying to dupe yourself into accepting yourself (because you know you don’t) than it would take to run a couple miles. You should be stoking the courage to change the things you can. Burn your book of self affirmations and go burn some fucking calories."
I have been thinking about OA off and on for a year now-and every day for the last week. Sometimes all your worlds, including the Internet, point you in a direction you know you need to go, but you cannot seem to take that first step. So I keep seeking affirmation, driving by its house , reading its blog, writing it comments on Facebook, following it on Twitter...but then panicking when it actually calls and I don't pick up the phone or listen to the voice-mail...ok, that was weird even for me! But you know what I mean. I can't sit here anymore, but where is my rock bottom?
So I am almost positive that I am going to finally kick off the year right and do it for more than 2 weeks. Well, I am gonna give the old college try. I am going to party like it's 2009 tomorrow night and I am going to put on my big girl panties at midnight and try it agin. I am beginning to feel so left out. My two best friends are beginning new relationships. Neither one is desperate, but because they keep trying they keep meeting really great people...I have to try. I know I have 18 months of grad school and a child going to college and another child's senior year and his college and all those adjustments and what ever comes next~but it still lacks something. So let's see where 2010 takes us, OK?
Good times..Good Times
Author: LibraryGirl62 / Labels: weight lossI got to do some really great stuff this weekend...and people took pictures of it. Damn but I hate pictures of myself. I am fat and old and ugly and it just SUCKS! I do all this fun stuff with awesome people and I want no record of it because I cannot stand to see myself. Yes, I know I can fix that, but what do I do in the mean time? well, I smile and act like it doesn't bother me, but it does. If I do get off my ass and begin to fix this situation, the picture of me and the rock star will always have a large woman with fuzzy gray hair in it ...and I don't know who she is...why is she in my picture with the rock star and why does she keep following me?
we believe God wants you to know... ... that you are only as free as you imagine yourself to be.
There is nothing ''out there'' that's holding you down, - you are limiting yourself only with your own imagination. And your greatest limits are not even the ''cannot'' and the ''should not'', but the places where your imagination hasn't yet gone at all. There has never been a better time for you to open your eyes, let the imagination soar and see what more is possible.
got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...... that humans learn only by trial and error, and that includes you.
You've got to live life, not think about it. Step into the midst of things, try and fail and learn and stand up again. The question is not whether you will or will not make mistakes - you will. The question is do you want to learn and grow, or do you want to shrink back and be stuck? Take that step you've been avoiding. You can succeed, or you can get feedback that it didn't work, but in either case you are sure to feel alive.
Do I need a lightening strike? I must get my ass in gear-even messages from facebook know it!
got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...... that you cannot wait anymore.
The moment has finally come. You have no choice. You have to take that step now. Now. Not tomorrow, not in an hour, - Now! If anyone else is reading this, they would be confused. But not you. You know exactly what we mean. Do it. Now.
I can feel the hand of God...on my back, pushing me over the cliff.
got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...... that what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are.
If all you had to do was wish for something and you would have it, life would be pretty boring, wouldn't it? God placed barriers between us and what we want, so we can enjoy interesting and satisfying lives. God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go, and that's how we get out biggest rewards. What are you most afraid of? Say it, just start by saying it.
This thing is beginning to creep me out. Is it stalking me????
I read that in a writing prompt today~fear of flying. And I think that is my diagnosis~I am afraid to fly
got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...... that doubt is the greatest gift, - it's the space between two certainties.
Any change on its way from one place of stability to the next one, passes through a period of doubt. Your old perspective has to disintegrate, and doubt comes in for a visit - even if only for a moment, before the new perspective takes root. Doubt is your greatest gift, because from doubt you can go anywhere.
From my Facebook app. How cool on the day i decide to stop doubting myself and go for it!
My son and I are going to try doing Body for Life...YIKES!!! So much protein, very boring, but maybe that will help. He is a little overweight, maybe 20 lbs. It seems that he is surrounded by skinny boys and people telling him how much better he would be at his chosen sport if he only dropped a few pounds. SO I am going to eat better with him. Again...God I hate this merry go round! Why can't I go back 40 years or so and fix it? Oh well, wish me well.....
A couple of friends are going to do a sprint triathlon in August~1/2 mile swim, 8 mile bike, 3.1 mile "run" ~can I do that? I have so much to lose and so little self esteem and I just don't know....but part of me really wants to try. Should I ? It really is tugging at my brain and my soul and my heart...I can hear yes you can, yes you can,yes you can....Should I listen?
Incubus Drive
Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I let the fear
Take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before
And it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
I'll be there
So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before
And it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around
But lately I'm beginning to find that
When I drive myself my light is found
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
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