Dropping My Baggage

I need to forgive myself for my response to what happened to me. 
I was just a little girl, but I did some things I am so ashamed of I cannot speak of them or even ask forgiveness for them. I don't know why I did those things.  Perhaps I wanted someone else to feel the shame as well..  Maybe it was revenge-I still don't know.

I have to forgive myself, hope others forgive me and pray God forgives me too.

I love that I am happy.  I really am.  
Now I know you are thinking,  "Really?  Then why do you hide your emotions with food?" That is for a therapist in my future to figure out, but I really wake up every morning glad to see the day and all the people in it.
And that my friend, is enough.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
I hate that I don't believe in myself enough to do something with my weight.  I hate that something catastrophic will have to happen to make me sit up and deal with this (or that my family will have to lay me down in a box and they will be left to deal with it).